That was the beginning of my cucked childhood. Not a betrayal with a girl. A betrayal with a cooler, richer, funnier version of me . The internet has co-opted the word "cucked" for political memes and adult content. But in the context of summer memories and childhood friends, it has a sharper, more private meaning.

When I walked up, Sora didn’t wave. He just said, "Oh, you’re here. Kai brought Mountain Dew Code Red ."

We had a pact. A stupid, sacred, boyish pact: "No new people." The three of us against the world.

And to Kenji and Sora, if you ever find this article: I hope your summers are warm. I hope you found your tribes. And I hope, somewhere in your memory, you remember the walkie-talkies. Because I remember everything.

Kai was the perfect ano new . He didn’t steal my friends by being mean. He stole them by being better . More generous with snacks. More confident in giving orders. He had a pool; I had a sprinkler. He had a gaming PC; I had a library card.

Kai had things we didn’t. A trampoline with a safety net. A basement with a projector. A copy of Halo 2 before the official release date. Most importantly, Kai had confidence. He didn’t ask to join our game of manhunt; he simply announced the rules and assigned teams.

I tried to compete. I bought a six-pack of the same soda. I learned the rules to a card game Kai invented. I laughed at his jokes even when they weren’t funny. Nothing worked. Because you cannot out-alpha the ano new in their own territory.

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